So, there are only a few hours left until 2011 wanders off into the sunset for good.
This is always a time of reflection for me as I look back at the waning year and the events that have happened, especially as this year has been an up and down one for me for various reasons and for many other people I know. Some have suffered more than others and some are still suffering and will take their pain into 2012.
Despite that, I always have a spark of optimism that the new year will provide better opportunities for me, that my family and friends will be happy and healthy and not have any traumas to deal with. On the downside, a stupid part of me has that spark of sadness that the old year has not proven itself to be what I had hoped and set it up to be.
The main amazing thing for me was joining Twitter as I have met some fabaroonie people through it, both in person and on the timelines. You lot are a wonderful bunch, but then you know that don’t you… *wanders off muttering about them being a right bunch of conceited so and so’s…*
Also, getting this blog off the ground is another achievement I am proud of. I enjoy writing it (even the sad ones as to me, they are a form of therapy) and I hope that people enjoy reading it.
However, I want to get serious for a moment and say that it never ceases to amaze me how easily humans can hurt those they love; I have done it and had it done to me on many occasions over the years. We tell ourselves that we didn’t mean to do it but we say and do things that show otherwise. We are insensitive to the other persons pain and we flaunt our new-found freedom with gay abandon ignoring what is happening to the one we leave behind. It is not really a good way to behave and does not show us in a good light but it is what we do. Look at yourselves if you have done this and know that there is someone who is hurting deeply and you have to own some of that pain if you are the cause of it. Know that they invested alot of time and energy into being with you; don’t be callous now that you are no longer with them. Be aware that they are grieving and need a bit of sensitivity from you to get over the initial hurdles of hurt, because hormones/emotions are a rancid collection of chemicals that can be the ultimate high when all is well, but are a living hell when not.
So, moving on from that, as midnight approaches, I always tell myself that next year, I will be a better person, I will try my best not to cause pain and say and do things that hurt those that I love. I will try to be a better daughter, sister, and friend to those around me. I will try not to dislike me and not be so negative about myself and accept that I am me, I am valuable and I have as much right to walk this earth as anyone else. I will try to think before I speak (yes, I might have a bit of trouble with this one, but I will try!) and not worry if our opinions differ.
Let us all try to be more caring towards each other, let us remember those that are more vulnerable than we are, remember those who feel that they have nowhere to turn to and offer that helping hand to them. Let them know that they are not alone. Let us be optimistic that 2012 will be OUR year and that we will feel happier and healthier throughout.
All that remains for me to say is that I want to wish you all a wonderful and Happy New Year, I want the best for you all and to those of you that I have met through Twitter, I value your friendships and look forward to lots more fun get togethers with you! Those I have not met, well 2012 can be the year where we try to rectify that. Those of you who are suffering, I wish you peace and serenity and know that there is light at the end of the tunnel and that you WILL get there.
Raise your glasses everybody…
Love, Bint xx
Note to self: when writing a blog in the early morning in your nightie, best to cover your legs as I am sure the people opposite didn’t want to see up my you-know-what at this time of day…