Well ladies and gents, here we are again. The last day of the year and one that has been a bit of an adventure for me, as you well know, and as I look back at 2012, there are quite a few things to reflect upon.
I knew that it would be interesting back in January, even then events at my old work place were smacking me in the head loud and clear and telling me that there would be changes afoot for me. And what changes they were!
What surprised me the most about the whole redundancy thing was how it made me feel and how much it effected me as a person. I did not appreciate how low my confidence and self-esteem were and how I thought that even though I was happy with their decision, I was full of doubt about whether I would get another job, or that I had any talents of any description that are marketable and would make another company want to hire me.
That is where my outplacement consultant Sue, was an absolute godsend. When I first met her I could not think of one positive thing to say about myself; I felt useless and really quite beaten and thought I was a waste of space. I was scared of getting back out in the job market again after so long and was sure that no-one would hire me. The only thing I did know is that I didn’t want a permanent job, I wanted and still want to do short-term contract/temp jobs and see how other places function. I want to meet new people and go from place to place for a while until I make my decision about my future.
Sue gently steered me through my stupid maze of self-loathing and was the best thing that my old organisation did for me, well that and the redundancy money, of course! With a revamped CV, a ton of hints and tips and always there at the end of the telephone or email, I was ready to face the world of the job seeker again and even though I was nervous when I went for my first interview, I had done my homework, was prepared and would have got the job, if there had been one to get in the first place!
I did get another job very soon afterwards and I am there until mid January. The agency is pleased with the feedback they have been given and I know that my colleagues will be sad to see me go and wanted me to apply for the permanent position. That is really good to hear and you cannot imagine how that has made me feel. Finally knowing that I am good at my job and that people want me has been a real boost to my confidence. Yes, I realise that it is my first job, but it is the start I needed and a good foundation for the future.
Usually I feel a little bit sad on this day and wish the outgoing year had been a better one, and yes, part of me was sad to have ended my career at an organisation that I once was so proud to work for. However, not this time. Today I am glad to see the back of 2012 and all that I went through, glad to see the back of that place where I had been unhappy for so long and curious and excited about my tomorrows and beyond.
It only remains for me to say that I wish you all a wonderful New Year, and I really hope that 2013 is a bright, brilliant and beautiful year for you all.